Yesterday was a difficult day. It was not only the fourth anniversary of the passing of Daniel, but it was a day in which we realized the future does not look financially very bright. In the midst of inflation and our investments unquestionably broadly losing ground, while homeowners insurance and taxes continue to climb, we have taken some losses. We don't need or aim to be wealthy, however we need to finish the task of educating our children and provide somewhat for our older age, so as not to be a burden. Some of our friends think that Mr. Obama's health plan will kill older people off by bringing a government run, plodding and choiceless health care system, which will end most of our lives sooner, but I am perhaps foolish enough to plan to be here for awhile.
Many of the women in the mother's bereavement group to which I am a member, believe that their loved ones who have passed periodically provide them with encouragements in some way, on the anniversaries of their passings perhaps, or during times of trouble or challenges. I suppose I believe this too. I believe such things can happen: I just believe they don't usually and won't to me. Last night I went to bed with not only the knowledge that things are not good financially for us right now, but that the new toothache I have will need some attention. I went to bed early and was very cold as I climbed in. I dislike those newer mattresses which make the bed too high to climb into without gymnastic precision.
|(Photograph: fanpop.com) In your dreams, it may not be Autumn.|
Sometime this morning I had a dream. My husband and I were driving the car, which incidentally was a silver diesel Volkswagen Passat, if you would like the stage set, and we moving some things to a place where our adult children were already staying. At one point, we looked into the back seat and saw Daniel, as a baby, at about one year of age. In the dream I said to him, "I thought you were dead". The answer came telepathically, "No, I am still with you, always". "But you are not a baby" I countered. "I get here the easiest way I can" he said. "Oh, good" I said, and then we drove on to our destination. I certainly hope that God and Daniel bring me these encouragements from time to time. Lord knows I could use them !