I can't believe that you, my love, would be twenty-nine years old today ! The last time we spoke you were twelve and a half ! So much has happened in our family and in the world since your departure. I know that God will let you know anything you are meant to, so I won't waste our time updating superficial things here on Earth.
Suffice it to say that only one animal that you loved and that would remember you remains here on Earth. The alpaca Warrior Princess Camellia is just that. She is substantially beyond normal lifespan, yet fights to remain here, reluctant to join her mother Queen Isabelle, her father Ditto Two, her brother Chocolat and a sister she did not know, Shakria. I know she misses her uncles and other herd mates,many that you did not know, that were here when she was young and middle aged.. We watch her closely, and she still loves her life, but someday soon, she will be coming to you, and to her animal family. Perhaps God doesn't think I can handle the loss of anyone else who is dear to me, and this is why she remains.
Your brother Matthew has been gone from Earth now two and a half years. I am not doing well with his loss. I try hard but I am bitter having lost two sons, and despite the fact that I tell myself that God blessed me with children and what should be a good life, I sometimes can't see past these losses. I also miss my Dad very much. I pray unceasingly.
Thank you for visiting in dreams. I appreciate those visits from Dad and from Matthew also.
I will probably never be okay with your having to depart at twelve and a half, but I tell myself that each day I live, I am closer to a reunion with you, with Matt and with my Dad and the animals. I also will see our Lord. I must have been very prideful to think I could do all I set for myself here on Earth. I have stumbled since your departure, and been lost more than a few times. You certainly had a very human mother.
Happy Birthday, Daniel. I love you deeper than the oceans and wider than the seas.
