Merry Christmas Daniel, 2025

 

 

              Merry Christmas, Daniel.   It's so hard to believe that you departed for Heaven seventeen years ago now, and that you would be twenty-nine years old had you remained on Earth.   I know that Jesus is with you and that you and Matthew and my Dad are together and that you have met, most likely, with relatives and ancestors I know about, but may never have had the opportunity to see or with whom to speak.

              Sweet alpaca Cammie is still alive, and at about 24 and is the only remaining animal you would have known while you were on Earth. She is enjoying her remaining life, but may join you sooner rather than later. You are missed very much, as is Matthew. Your stockings still hand at the fireplace with the others at Christmas. You are also in our prayers at Christmas dinner.

               We love you (and Matt and Dad) so, and each day we get closer to seeing you again.  I love you, bug. My best regards to my Dad, your Dad's parents, Matt, and to my mother if you see her. My Nana, Joan and Edna might also appreciate a remembrance.  XOXO

        

Happy Birthday ! Daniel Would Be 29 !

 

 

                      I can't believe that you, my love, would be twenty-nine years old today !   The last time we spoke you were twelve and a half !   So much has happened in our family and in the world since your departure.  I know that God will let you know anything you are meant to, so I won't waste our time updating superficial things here on Earth.

                      Suffice it to say that only one animal that you loved and that would remember you remains here on Earth.  The alpaca Warrior Princess Camellia is just that. She is substantially beyond normal lifespan, yet fights to remain here, reluctant to join her mother Queen Isabelle, her father Ditto Two, her brother Chocolat and a sister she did not know, Shakria.  I know she misses her uncles and other herd mates,many that you did not know, that were here when she was young and middle aged..  We watch her closely, and she still loves her life, but someday soon, she will be coming to you, and to her animal family.  Perhaps God doesn't think I can handle the loss of anyone else who is dear to me, and this is why she remains.

                      Your brother Matthew has been gone from Earth now two and a half years.  I am not doing well with his loss. I try hard but I am bitter having lost two sons, and despite the fact that I tell myself that God blessed me with children and what should be a good life, I sometimes can't see past these losses.  I also miss my Dad very much. I pray unceasingly.

                       Thank you for visiting in dreams. I appreciate those visits from Dad and from Matthew also. 

                      I will probably never be okay with your having to depart at twelve and a half, but I tell myself that each day I live, I am closer to a reunion with you, with Matt and with my Dad and the animals. I also will see our Lord.  I must have been very prideful to think I could do all I set for myself here on Earth.  I have stumbled since your departure, and been lost more than a few times.  You certainly had a very human mother.

                        Happy Birthday, Daniel.  I love you deeper than the oceans and wider than the seas.