I Remember

Daniel, I remember planning your next homeschool year, being challenged because you are so bright, and knowing that even at 12 1/2, that I would soon have to enroll you in community college until you were old enough to go to a university. I remember your room being a mess, but not bothering you about it, because I knew that you would eventually clean and organize it. I remember thinking I would have to buy you new shoes again.....Like your brothers, you have big feet. I remember your hating to shop and having great difficulty getting you to want to go out and get something. Every day I remember so many large and subtle details about you, your life, and how lucky I was to have you as my son, even for just 12 1/2 years.
Dad, I remember how tall and strong you are....every time I have ever seen you. I remember how articulate you were even when you were very ill. I remember your favorite foods.....the English cheddar, the seedless rye, and honey, and the British beer. I remember the music you loved, the places you traveled, and many things you said that I may not have seemed to remember at the time.
I remember deeply sad and sorrowful moments in 2008, of both of you, and I don't want to forget them because they are part of the journey and part of each of you.
I hope you each know that especially this time of year, I think of you both constantly, and wonder what you are doing, and what interests you. I share my thoughts and music I have found with each of you. Know that you are loved and part of my family no matter how far you must travel to glimpse and be a part of Thanksgiving.....
You know the drill...........I love you both wider than the oceans and deeper than the seas.